Promise.

Okay, this is the only place I can let it all go and just say it.

NightStreet is over. 

At first I was really upset and scared.

Now, I think it's best because I don't even want to think about the other member.

He makes me sick to my stomach, really, I get physically sick when I think about him because I'm scared. I'm scared that things won't ever feel okay. I'm scared I'll be on-edge forever. I used to think he was fun and great to hang out with, but as time went by, he became so needy and mean. I couldn't stand him anymore. He had these stupid moods that I hated! I didn't talk to him for a long time because he got on my nerves. The only time he was cool was when he was outside of school and we were making music.

Now, I see what a horrible person he has become and I am so glad we are not friends anymore. He's just rotten. 

After a week of him telling me to , "FUCK *FF", I get a horrible message from him saying "we are done" as a a band and as friends. 

He's a jerk. 

He's an angry mean person that I don't have to deal with anymore.

And I'm glad. =)

On a good note, Jon and I are forming a new music project.

We may play some of the NightStreet songs that I wrote.

We will make our own new music and it will be awesome!

Currently, we are also writing a Musical.

It will be called: Enigma.

It's based off of the songs I have written and we formed a story around them.

It's tight!

UGGGH!

A few days ago, I did find out about Lyndsey getting into a new relationship.

At first I was scared, and sad, and mad.

Scared because I didn't know who, sad because I was afraid I'd lose her friendship, and mad because she always told me,

 "I am not going to date for the rest of High School"

LIE.

I told her,

"I'll believe it when I see it."

Oh well, Now I am actually kinda happy for her.

She chose a nice guy.

He's really cool. He's a great actor and (dancer)?

haha

Anyway, the point is, they have more in common then we ever did.

She's still a sweet girl and I'm glad she really hasn't changed.

I've realized that life doesn't revolve around what I want.

I've really started to think about things from a different perspective. 

These little things have changed my thinking in a interesting way.

God knows.

He knows what he's doing.

It may have hurt me, but in the long run,

he knows.

He knows the right way for me to move forward and look at the days ahead as open arms.

With this, I have changed another mind of mine.

I think I may go to LA next year.

I am going to audition for AMDA.

I realized that I need to focus on the dreams NOW.

I can't wait.

I need to leave.

I need to get it done.

Far from home.

Don't mistake this for me hating home, because i don't.

My family rocks.

I know they do.

I'm not complaining in the least.

I hate high school.

Period.

People suck.

Rumors suck.

Dreams are great.

But they're just Dreams.

Until I do something about them.

And I plan on doing it next year.

Overall.

This past week has molded me.

I know I'm at least a little different now.

Not new, just changed a bit.

I'm ok.

Promise.